Had my formal event tonight. It was so much fun! I got glammed up and felt like a million bucks. Slowly but surely I'm getting my swagger back
To be honest, It did feel nice to have some people who know about my sitch tell me that I looked really nice and my stbxh was an arse for ever letting me go. It's not about physical appearances.... I know that.... But since this is a safe space here, I'll say he had it good. He's a balding middle aged man, and I'm an early 30's ex-pro dancer and former beauty queen. Ok, that was really mean and very snobby and arrogant of me. Can we just blame it on the wine???
Maybe I need that validation and reassurance that I could be physically attractive to others. I haven't felt that in a long time. I miss being arm candy. I'm a strong independent woman (in the making) but I want to be with someone who is damn proud to be with me and vice versa. I digress.
Anyway, I wasn't there to pick anyone up, but I had the best time and let it all out on the dance floor. Ahhhhhh nothing better than dancing the night away with good peeps and not a care in the world.
.... And the beat goes on....
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
