So he has left. As predicted it was as odd as the whole of this situation. We were sat chit chatting this morning and then he just got up and started packing all his stuff in to the car! He could not fit a lot of his things in and missed a few items that were in boxes, but he did not seem bothered when I pointed them out.
He loaded the dogs which I took as the signal he was actually leaving and he stood looking at me, not sure what to say or do, waiting for my lead. So I said " whats left to say?", h replied "I don't know, goodbye I suppose", I replied "you don't deserve a goodbye from me", I turned and walked away, he left and that is that.
I have cleaned the house, my go to when upset, and am now sat here, the empty feeling from crying so hard. I know that is normal and ok, I will let these times happen as they need to. I also know that in time I will see that this was a good thing, a blessing in disguise, he was not ready to reconcile with me, he is still very broken.
So the world continues to turn, the sun will continue to rise and set and I will continue to breath.
