Have a major case of WAH syndrome kicking in. I suddenly find myself not caring about seeing or talking to her. She asked to get together last Friday night... I thought meh. Once we got together it was fine. I have had little to no desire to text her... she's noticed. Asks why I am so quiet. She sent me a text earlier this week saying that she had been looking at places where we could go to talk to someone if I was still interested. I said of course but I again didn't feel excited about it. I haven't heard anything about that since.
I find myself wondering if this would be worth it. I have been doing crazy probability calculations trying to point to a path. Even though I know it is pointless. I run scenarios like what are the chances WW and I are happy together if we reconcile, what are the chances it crashes, what are the chances I would be happy with someone else etc etc etc. It's crazy. I even browsed some online dating sites this week.
The problem is that this seems too likely to repeat down the road. I think we would have a good 2-3 years but then after that, I don't know. I mean if she left me for this piece of garbage, what happens if someone good actually comes along. She's very pretty and very outgoing so men are going to be naturally attracted to her. Maybe it is better to cut my losses... hmph
