Those feelings, when you see Christmas commercials, hurt less and less over time. I remember seeing amarous Italian couples on the escalators on the tube and saying under my breath "oh god no".
It doesn't bother me now. I think the happier you genuinely are the less you miss these things. Even your WS. Sounds sad, but it's not really. It's just how it is. It's all a bit 'Frozen' but you really do have to "let it go" and start doing things for you that make you genuinely happy.
You don't need to know about your WH's mind. It's a sign of detachment that you still want to although you are definately getting there. I bet you IC would have less of an idea than you in fairness. Depression, Crises based upon upbringing and feeling inadequate. Looking for affirmation in all the wrong places. Etc.
I wouldn't worry about it as you can't change it. No point in understanding the intracicies of the Trump Vote, BREXIT etc as you can't change them. It's not different really, understanding a WS provides no real key to change. Understanding you and the sitch does. As you can adapt how you think pand most importantly act. And that is ALL you can control really.
Surfer.
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