The strain on my relationship has gotten worse, but my personal life has gotten much better.
Old friends and family, even some people whom married into my family but left due to messy divorces, have been showing up to support me from far and wide. I have been getting words of encouragement, nice letters, visits, the works from friends, family, and colleagues.
It has all been overwhelming because it feels like the aftermath of a funeral, but I'm thankful for all the people, in the dozens, whom have come out to help and support me.
I also came to realize I am not the cause for the recent issues in my marriage and my spouse's actions. It has become clearer to me that I am either dealing with a mentally unstable person, a narcissist who has no use for me, someone that may have done something they are extremely ashamed off and therefore must "blame me" to make themselves feel better, or a combination of the three.
I usually have a plan or a "feeling" for the future, for the first time in my life I have no idea what may happen next. But most importantly, I'm not worried, things will come, and good stuff will happen :-D .
