I cannot get over missing my husband

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Job - Is that what you refer to being hit over the head with a 2x4? I have gone out bought myself some big girl panties:-))) You are so right and I do know it. The mornings are particularly difficult with depression and the world always looks very bleak. It's like I wake up and realize the nightmare continues...The kids and I have already planned a completely different Christmas and New Years from what we usually do and MIL is joining us as well. We are all looking forward to it even without H.

Your question "what would I do if my husband was in a coma?". Good question. I would be very sad and very worried but I would take charge...I think for me the difference here is as well as being very sad and very worried, I am also very hurt by what he is doing now with GF and his lack of empathy for what we are going through and lack of love for us. It kills me to know that he is showering another woman with his 'love' and attention and not me! He has been my man since we were 20 years old and I am not into sharing! He has always treated me like I was the only one and been very romantic even after all these years so it hurts so much that he just flipped a switch and turned off his love for me when I still feel so much love for him. I wish I could get really mad at him for what he is doing but I just don't seem to able to...thank you, Job, I really do appreciate you being there to push me off the pity pot!