Still reading along. Please try to work on those so you can love yourself. I struggled with this and didn't even realize it until I took a class on mindfullness as part of an MBA. The professor required us to have 1 on 1 sessions with her and it was basically like a psuedo IC. I learned so much, and I guess luckily, everything came crashing down on me during this time which let me reflect even more. Anyway, the point is that it is something very important to work through.
Of course it is not a bad thing.....as long as it does not send you spinning! You just have to go in there with zero expectations (it really has to be zero though, not just telling yourself its zero) and enjoy the time. Don't but degrees on positives. Just take it as a positive sign and file it away/ Don't think of it as more or less positive.
