Struggling

[fightin]

I don't know how you do it Chris, I'm a basket case though I'm working hard to not show her that anymore. The first few days were rough. What is odd is that now that I've backed way off she's actually more distant than ever. I'm hoping this will change though.

Did your W resume the EA/PA after all your snooping? I will resist snooping as I said before because I know it will only lead to more pain.

She initially said she wanted to work it out, but wouldn't stop seeing OW. I pointed out it was impossible for her to try with me if she was still seeing her. Then it turned into her telling me flat out to GAL and get happy and mentally healthy again and MAYBE she'd want to be with me again, but no guarantees.

When I told her I can't compete with OW because OW gets to give her butterflies and compliment her, and be affectionate, she acknowledged this was true, but said what I have on my side is the person she fell in love with and to just focus on being that person. So she's basically telling me to DB and she doesn't know it.