Re "You never know what the New Year will bring" -- I think you need to spend some time between now and then preparing for at least the possibility that she's coming to introduce your son to you.
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)