Struggling

[fightin]

Chris73, thanks as always. It is nice to get advice and outside opinions from other DBers.

Usually, she texts me once or twice throughout the day about something random and unimportant. Today, complete radio silence, possibly because she's excited about her big night, but most likely because she took the day off and is spending it with OW.

She made all these rules when she dropped the bomb a week ago, and has since broken every single one that she made for herself, but expects me to keep my end up. This goes back to the believe nothing they say and 1/2 of what they do mantra. Also, it just solidifies for me that this is definitely not my W. She is definitely a pod-person ATM. Also, she has zero respect for me, that has become clear as well.

I will stand firm on not talking about OW. Once in a while my curiosity creeps up on me, but I have not done any snooping since 2 days in. I imagine that what I would learn would only hurt me more and I can't possibly bear anymore at this point.

W isn't dependent on me being home for anything ever. I think it would be a relief for her at this point if I just disappeared altogether. Her son absolutely adores me and calls me "mom" as well. I've made it a point to be home on the nights that we have him, but this weekend she is a free bird to do as she pleases so I'd like to keep myself as occupied as possible.