New to the 180. Help?

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Now he says he doesnt want to go by himself and just wants to come and do it with family instead. I guess its an improvement, but it doesnt feel like it.

So what do you want?

Honestly, I would like it to work, but I felt better after I told him I hated him.

I wouldnt judge based on your feelings. As you know, those can and will change. Just because you feel good about having said that now, doesnt mean you will tomorrow or next week or next year.