All I can say is read everything that Cadet has given you to read, read it 10 times. It takes a bit for it to sink in. I would stop with the physical stuff. You cant win her back if she doesn't want it. But you can GAL, Detach and start moving on As If. Do this for yourself, not her. These are horrible situations but if you take it day by day things will get better (not sure what the better looks like). Zuess reminded me that life is full of uncertainties, you just never know what it will bring. Be the best man you can be and a guy only a fool would leave. Im sorry your going through this, I know exactly how you feel, I couldn't eat, sleep or concentrate on work for a long time. You can't let her see that your hurting, you cant pursue her. You can no more make her want to stay than you could make her want to marry you, She needs to make that choice herself. Read your homework from Cadet.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder
