Cadet - I know it will be hard. I also know that I am still having such a hard time because I have not detached. I thought maybe confronting her would help me detach, but I don't know.
Pac - Thanks for the input. I know that if I confront her, it will change everything. I will no longer be able to talk to her in a friendly way and I probably won't even be able to be around her for exchanging the kids. I simply will not see her or talk to her at all. I can only imagine that this would drive her further away and closer to OM.
Rose - She has all the power now. I also think that she has no respect for me after the begging and pleading. If I confront her, I will lay down the bottom line. I will lay down boundaries about the OM and my kids. It will just be the first time since we separated that I will make my voice heard and stop worrying about how she reacts. I will have to let go of all of my fear and make a stand. I think she might respect that and know that she is not in control of the secret anymore. I don't know if this would be the case or not. Maybe she would be relieved. I am just at a loss as to what to do next and feel like the dynamic has to change at some point.
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