Job and AndrewP - thank you for being there...I have actually printed Jack_3_Beans words out myself and read and read and it does help a lot. I guess I just still find it so surreal that this is my lovely H who is doing this! He always thought guys who did what he is doing now were so sad and pathetic and now he has become one of those guys! If he "wakes up" will he ever be able to forgive himself???
