Hi Scrant, I think it is normal to feel that kind of grief. We think we have got ourselves to a certain place and then we feel something that we didn't expect. But I think it's all part of the process. For me, I think I went through a big phase of being fully into the DB process and buoyed as a result. But then a phase of accepting that D would happen for us and associated grief and so on.

The main thing is to honour what you feel. There are no 'shoulds' about how you feel - how you feel is how you feel. And also to keep moving forward. Feel what you feel and also keep moving forward.

That's a nice story of your S running you a bath. I think he's a little proud of his Dad...

Take care my friend :-)

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus