Coly, this is interesting to me- that seeing him physically triggers so much. I know I am in the same boat- when I saw H on the street weeks ago it really made me upset. Moving forward, I will have to consider all of this carefully in my actions...
Absolutely. It's like a physical tug to my insides for me which is why I try so hard to avoid it. I've never suffered from withdrawal of addiction to substances etc but I imagine that it feels like this - seeing something you want and knowing you can't have it. Even seeing what she does on Facebook some days will give me a twinge. It used to be that talking about her, hearing about her had the same effect but that seems to have died down.
Personally I've made the choice that I don't want to see or talk with my W until she's "done baking". That's reduced the "need" to see her / snoop but it's still not easy.
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