Struggling

[hawker]

Well, I didn't handle things great at first...I didn't find this site until after she moved out. My W is weak and couldn't make the decision on if she wanted to work on our M or start a new R.....after 4 months of EA with the OW she moved out to a rental for 2 months and then it moved to a PA. She still said she didn't know what she wanted...I was tired of living in limbo and said I can't live in a 3 person M....it didn't take long for her to move right in with the OW....which was so hard, I was emotional and had one melt down when she moved her stuff out....for the next 2 months she was texting things like I miss you and love you...so we were still talking some but then on Halloween she said she was going to start the process of D...that kicked me in the gut (she did it in the courtyard at school during class change)...since then I have went went very dim...she has texted a few times asking about my dad I gave a short answer reply and that is it....

So I thought there was progress at one point but not with the going dim....she is still in the fog with the OW and I don't see it lifting anytime soon.

I see progress in myself with the DB methods...I am thinking about her ALOT less and not waiting for a text or wanting to text her...I know I can't control her feelings I can just control my own emotions and how I react to the situation. Believe me I miss her and our life but I am OK.....I have a great support system!

Hang in there!!