Struggling

[fightin]

Chris,

I initially stated that I didn't want to hear anything about it, and thankfully we don't talk in depth about it. However, since we are best friends when I'm willing to sit down with her and listen to her feelings, even if about the OW, that is when she says she really sees the woman she fell in love with. That said it is hard for me to give that up knowing that right now it is the only time she sees the person in me she has been missing.

She initially said when she was with me she "promised" to be in the moment with me and wouldn't text the OW. Well of course she can't keep that promise. It started off she would text her if I left the room, now she just does it in front of me. I confronted her about it last night, but when she got angry and just shrugged when I asked why she'd be so disrespectful I just said "ok" and walked away. I continued to be nice to her rest of the evening and this morning before leaving for work.

No matter what happens between us I don't want to give her reasons to blame me, and I want to walk away knowing I gave it my all and that I can live with my actions.