Struggling

[fightin]

Thank you for your words Chris. I am so very sorry for what you're enduring as well. Sounds like we have a bit of similar situations and have a lot in common personality wise. I too can't feel at ease until I talk things out and she and I are also best friends which makes it so much harder because she wants to talk to me about the A and tell me why this OW is so great. She feels justified because she's had enough of me and while she's "real sorry to see me hurt" she's just "gotta do what makes her happy".

We have our moments when we do talk where I am in a good place and she says she can see the woman she fell in love with, but then I let my emotions get the better of me and show my crazy so that is what I'm working on now. So far it has been less than a month since the A started so I'm so thankful I found this forum and got the book so early on so I can stop my behaviors that push her away. It isn't easy, but I'm trying.

In my journey to GAL therapy and medication are my front line defense, but surrounding myself with good friends has already helped tremendously. Also, although the way I've lost weight is not healthy, the fact that I have lost weight helps me feel better too and I've been going to the gym a few times a week. I've been wanting to take guitar lessons for sometime now so I plan to get that started soon as well.

Sounds like while this is fresh for you too, you are also on the right track. Thank you again and keep fighting the DB fight!