where to begin or end?

[jade]

My biggest problem with using my balls, is it feels like id be stooping to her level and acting vindictively or spiteful, vs wrong and right. And with the emotion involved its hard for me to tell the difference sometimes. I think panic mode ended a few weeks ago, i feel more like im in the watch n see, and keep getting stones thrown at me by the wife. Ive quit the ILY, im 'coworker' polite when i do see her, and ive gone dim with her.
That all said i do thank you guys for your input, clear objective heads are what i need