H has been gone since May 2016. Not much going on in the sitch really. I went dark for seven weeks and then met H for coffee last week. It put me all in a tiz and after H suggesting we meet again this week I have cancelled on everyone's advice here as I just i don't think I am strong enough.
I think I really need to go back to being dark again. It's going to be so hard and I am sat here at work and I can feel the tears welling up. I just want this feeling to end but it doesn't matter what I do these feeling if hurt, disappointment and anger are so overwhelming sometimes.
H just texted me back and said no worries and then told me he has cacelled his gym membership which I was paying for. I just really need to talk to him about everything. I don't know if I can take this silence anymore....
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
