I feel almost evil. I know I don't owe him anything and he has made his choices. I also know he is feeling insecure and sad right now because he thinks I am seeing someone. He was in my house again yesterday. I knew he was going to be because DD is sick and it was his turn for visitation. However, I had laid down some ground rules. He ignored and I came home from work and his underwear and socks were on top of my garbage can because he had showered again. He has also dug through stuff to look for clean clothes. I called him out on it because it's inappropriate. He made more comments about the guy he believes me to be dating to which I didn't respond but I am now awake at 4am because I feel bad that he is wondering what I am doing. WTF is wrong with me? Geez. WS has a four year affair and I feel guilty because some guy from my support group is coming to hang my Xmas lights on Sunday.
