No positivity here this morning. Feel like I've taken several steps back and I can't seem to drag myself back.
I know that I wouldn't be doing anything different if I wasn't standing but I think it's the not talking about it that's the hardest. It's the not knowing what's going on in their heads and where I stand.
Maybe I should call off meeting for coffee this week. I feel like I'm doing what I shouldn't be and that's picking up his breadcrumbs when I deserve the whole loaf. I feel so hopeless again. I'm trying so hard to move forward but I feel like their is a mountain in the way and I'm having to go around and it's taking such a long time. I jut don't want to do this anymore....
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
