Wife had affair now moved out

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This is so hard and has not gotten any easier. I know I have to get strong but I can't. Detaching is so hard when I know I have to but I just can't. I feel like I'm doing everything wrong.

The part that is eating me alive is when I watch my normally outgoing D become shy and scared to be left alone even for an instant. I can't help but feel like I failed my daughter. When she is with me I out on a happy face for her and we fill out time together but I can't help but feel sad. It was always a family together, it's supposed to be that for her. I never wanted any of this.

I'm struggling to afford my house right now. I don't want to move because this is my daughters home, this is where she grew up so far, it is in a great school zone, but I'll have to let it go and it's just one more thing I let my daughter down on.

I'm just sad all the time. My emotions are so raw. When my daughter tells me she loves me I tear up.

We went back to my hometown to visit friends this weekend and she could play with her cousins. It's a 2 hour drive on the highway that felt so wierd because it has always been my W sitting next to me on those drives. Even though my daughter was in the car with me I felt so lonely.

I'm struggling so much right now

All I can do right now is reply to your post with support. I know exactly how you feel. The best thing I think you can do for yourself to feel better about all of this is to do your best to accept your situation. That doesn't mean that you have to be happy about it. It just means that you sometimes just shrug your shoulders and think to yourself "huh this is me now" Life is full of unexpected events, the house where your D grew up is just a house, her home will be where you make it. I have learned that through my experience. My STBXW is still in the house and can barely afford it, I chose to leave and make my home elsewhere. I call that house my shattered dream house as we just purchased it 3 years ago, we where doing well financially and where happy, or so I thought. I am renting an apartment and it feels like home, my S13 is comfortable there, it is only temporary. Take care of yourself, get used to the new you, enjoy your time with your daughter and yourself. And when you start to feel sorry for yourself because your W is not in the seat next to you, just try to shrug your shoulders, look through the windshield not the rear view mirror, because you can only move forward now. I am so sorry for your loss....it is sad.