You are all correct! I just need to get a little more control over my feelings. They get out of control a bit this time of the years. I am going to take it one day at a time. I need to just stop hoping and looking and accept whatever may comes my way. I'm living in the day.
I've thrown myself into my gym program which lasts until the end of the years. I love my 45 minutes there every night. It keeps me busy and makes me feel good. I love getting together with my good friends. I'm good.
What it comes down to is I need to chill the F-out. So I'm going to do that. I'm just going to be.
DonH- I wanted to speak to your suggestion of examining what I am doing to attract these guys. I have been afraid it was my fault. I have tried everything not to. It's not me.
On another note, he has been texting me, he said he is just joking, and he would never try anything unless I gave the go ahead. He still really wants to see me again. We will see.
Eric, a dane is a good idea! 200lbs of hairy love that will sleep in my bed and drool on me! It's like having a man that doesn't talk back!!!!!
