I agree with Ginger C-nut. If you wait for an apology to help you with closure, you may wait a very long time - a lifetime even.

The closest XH got to an apology was something along the lines of he knew he'd made mistakes but he hoped I realised he knows what he truly wants now - a new family.

That didn't really help me at all! But it was what he had to give at that point in time.

Ultimately, we need to find that acceptance, forgiveness and sense of peace within ourselves. Our WAS may not be present for any part of that journey, or even offer us anything or be aware of the path we are on.

It's completely understandable that you feel this way, but do look within rather than 'to her' for that healing.

Take care smile

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus