What should I be doing now (Time to Move on?)

[Coconut]

I'm wondering if it's time to end this saga.. I no longer feel anything towards the idea of trying to save my M, the only thing that I find myself really wanting is a true apology, but I don't see me ever wanting to get back together. I am really enjoying my freedom, I miss my past life when I think about it, but I don't find myself wanting to go back to it.

Is it too soon, maybe, after all it's only been 7 months since the first time I had any inkling anything was wrong.

I am still on a couple of her credit cards so I went on to make sure she was making the payments on time so I don't take another hit on my credit (she missed one payment and it showed up on my credit report), and I noticed a $100 charge from a cosmetic surgery center, as well as a $400 balance after I had paid off all of her credit cards less than a month ago. So I did start feeling a little concern that she is going to build up debt again (and possibly cosmetic surgery fees) and then I'm gonna have to take half of that when the D happens, so it may be weighing in on my feeling the need to file now.

Anyway, I went online and found a website that collects all the data and then prints out the forms to file at the court house and I started filling them out. I figure if I change my mind later, at least i'll already have the information started when I do decide to file, and it helps me to feel like I'm at least doing something to move forward (cause ya'll know I like to feel like I have control).

Not much interaction between my WW and I, just the occasional text about son, work, etc. About a week ago she did tell me something about her going to training at the FD and that I could pick my son up for dinner if I wanted (she knows I don't want anything to do with that place, including hearing about it, but I let it go and just said ok). I can pick my son up for dinner anytime he wants to go, so her having training or not isn't necessary for me to know.

Then the next day she texts me and says that son is volunteering at the FD and asked if I could bring him there, and I lost my $hit on her. I don't know if she is really that lacking in the common sense not to know that asking me to take him there would bother me, or if she just likes to deliberately take jabs, but either way I told her how I feel about it.

I think that my anger stems from her not feeling guilty, as I look around at the destruction she caused, it drives me crazy that she doesn't seem like she could care less. I will freely admit that the fire department is a trigger for me, and the more she ingrains my son into that place (he is my step son) the less that I will likely be seeing him (which isn't much as it is, maybe once every two weeks).

I invite him out a lot, but he's a teenage boy who is more into his friends and his life than wanting to spend time with dad. It doesn't surprise me, I knew that would be the case, but it has reaffirmed my desire to move out of state and I have a interview coming up next week. If I get offered the position, I would be moving out of state within 3 weeks of the interview.

As for the other girl in the office, I haven't talked to her since I came on here and posted about her. Like I said, we were two friends in the office that just enjoyed each others company and sense of humor a little too much. I just told her that because our connection as friends was so strong that it made me feel a longing to have someone in my life that I could feel that way with, and that I need to take my space and focus on myself and everything going on in my life.

We still see each other around the office, but when we converse it's very short and to the point now, and we don't IM all day on the office communicator. We never went out to eat together or spent time together in the break room, so that's not an issue. it was just about stopping the IM's and conversations...