Wife had affair now moved out

[Wes25]

This is so hard and has not gotten any easier. I know I have to get strong but I can't. Detaching is so hard when I know I have to but I just can't. I feel like I'm doing everything wrong.

The part that is eating me alive is when I watch my normally outgoing D become shy and scared to be left alone even for an instant. I can't help but feel like I failed my daughter. When she is with me I out on a happy face for her and we fill out time together but I can't help but feel sad. It was always a family together, it's supposed to be that for her. I never wanted any of this.

I'm struggling to afford my house right now. I don't want to move because this is my daughters home, this is where she grew up so far, it is in a great school zone, but I'll have to let it go and it's just one more thing I let my daughter down on.

I'm just sad all the time. My emotions are so raw. When my daughter tells me she loves me I tear up.

We went back to my hometown to visit friends this weekend and she could play with her cousins. It's a 2 hour drive on the highway that felt so wierd because it has always been my W sitting next to me on those drives. Even though my daughter was in the car with me I felt so lonely.

I'm struggling so much right now