So received an email today from the W stating "this is just as hard for me you know I know you don’t think it is and I am all the c*nts under the sun".
My response was : "I don't think that of you Clare. I understand why you did what you did (I don't understand why we couldn't have fought for it, but I accept that that's your decision). With respect, whilst I suspect that this is difficult for you, you haven't missed me at all so this can't be as hard for you as it is for me, you've got what you wanted, I'm left in a situation that I don't want to be in - I spend my time thinking about what has been lost and struggle to look forward to a bleak future. Again, (I say this respectfully), you now have the future that you want. Whilst piecing back our marriage would be very hard and mean a rebirth of the relationship, this separation is NOT what I want! But I accept that this is what you want and therefore this is the way that it is. I'm trying to piece myself back together so that there is no animosity between us - I want to be as amicable as possible".
I then received : "And I appreciate that. I am not getting into this as there is no point and future that I want? Ok its more the future that I was pushed into Saturday night prime example, how many years would I ask you to go to bonfire or fireworks? Another memory that I have now lost out on".
I went back with : "No you're right, this shouldn't be an argument Clare - I don't want that.
I genuinely would have loved you to have been there on Saturday - I missed you terribly! There are some more photos but they are of me and Joe and I didn't think you'd want to see those. I'm sorry for my failings Clare, I truly am, there are many regrets that I have - that we didn't make more memories doing things together but I am grateful for those memories that we do have - it's a shame it has taken something like this to happen to make me realise this".
So thoughts on this - How many mistakes have I made here?...
M - 36 / W - 32 S - 3 Together - 18 Yrs / Married - 10 Yrs Bomb Dropped - 4th Sept 2016 Moved out - 4th Sept 2016