Hi Lou, if you think about what your H was saying six weeks ago, and what he is saying now - things change and I do believe there is always hope if you choose to stand for your M. I agree, not in the immediate short term, but who knows in the longer term?
I understand what you are saying about 'the one.' Fact is, many MLCers take a look around the office over a period of a week and choose that person! Then wonder why things turned out so badly in the end?? I can't imagine being attracted to a guy who is in 'that place.' Really, I think all my alarm bells would go off and I would start back tracking.
Anyway, it sounds as though you are doing well - sad, but grounded too. I look forward to hearing about your new plans and how you will move forward to a richer life. I agree it sounds like a better plan to seek new work as the old job was rough on you physically. I'm rooting for you anyway Lou and hoping for brighter days ahead.
Xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus