I'd thought I might add a few things in an effort to keep this post at the moving up.
In July I sought help from a psychiatrist. The anxiety and depression caused by this situation was keeping me from functioning normally. I was prescribed Lexapro and Wellbutrin. So far it has helped, but I would like to be medication free in the near future.
I think the hardest part is that nobody knows. Other than one long distance friend and my therapist, I haven't confided in anyone. It's extremely difficult to keep up appearances in front of family and friends. My wife and I don't fight much at all and when we do, the kids aren't around. I don't know if they suspect what's happening...
M46 W48 M11 T14 S11 D8 BD: 2016/05/27 In-home separation: 2016/11/23 Nesting: 2017/06/11 W moves out: 2018/01/07 W goes public with OM: 2018/07/12 I ask for a divorce: 2018/12/14