Yeah, in her mind, we'd rent the apartment, then one of us would live there solo while the other parents in the home, then we'd switch, with the kids never leaving. I'm not sure, but I think I might tell her to go ahead and get the apartment, use it when she needs it, but I'm not going to use it. I don't think she has the legal right to make me vacate, but then she might just go get a bigger place and move the kids there every other week. The financial hit to the family as a whole would be a lot greater given the rent differentials, so I don't know what I'd end up thinking was the right way to go.
I definitely have miles and miles to go, Gump. If I'm even detached at all, it's been since all of Sunday, when she told me about what MC was to her, and I suddenly realized that that was the last great piece of ammo I thought I might have available (i.e., get her into counseling, have it slowly "work", however that happens, etc.). It was both really sad realizing that I have hit empty but also a little freeing. I felt relief, like I'd at least fulfilled my end of this terrible duty to fight as hard as I could.
I could be right back in it all with the flip of switch, or some small act of affection from her, most likely. But it has felt better in just these few days, and it's been a long, long time since I've been able to point to even 4-5 days of improved sleep and overall outlook/PMA.
Onward, I guess.
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)