Don't know where I belong.....

[twinmom]

Thank you everyone. I've had an emotional few days! The Cubs winning has brought out a lot of emotions & memories. I'm going up to Wrigley Monday to pop a bottle of bubbly on my grandmother's brick. (She was cremated so no grave site to visit)

H hasn't hit rock bottom & I know it's because I'm still here. I don't know if he will truly get the help he needs without hitting bottom. BUT, I'm so scared of taking away the stability, calmness & overall life the kids enjoy.

H has always DONE things for me, even while living with OW he would bring me coffee when picking up the kids. He would even throw in a load of laundry right after he first left.

He still doesn't flirt with me the way he did with the OW (the one he lived with). He tells me he loves me, thanks me for taking care of the kids & helping out financially but it's like he just can't bring himself to flirt with me.