Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

Ok so just to clarify what I meant by fill in the gaps. In my IC session yesterday we went over the timeline since BD. He had me list only the facts and no speculation. He then asked me if I had in my head filled in some of the gaps with what I thought may have been going on. I told him I did and told him what I filled the gaps in with. He told me that I can only focus on the facts and for now I have to be "ok" with not knowing what is in the gaps. He said if we decide to do MC at that time she will be able to fill in some of those gaps for me.

I can see where that could have been confusing Gump. TBH I really don't feel any anger toward my W now. I have accepted that there are issues in both of us that need to be addressed. Without things blowing up now it would have happened down the road and could have been even worse.