Court date set, still holding on (csabo part 2)

[csabo]

I might have just ruined everything the night he said he missed me. I wasn't prepared and let my guard down and said I missed him too and we talked about the relationship (he brought it up) but I was probably too eager, I mean I let him sleep with me and then he got mad at himself for "coming back". And then the next week I cried when we got our court date. I tried not to, but he could see right through me and came and hugged me and I couldn't stop.

So... Maybe it was working and I screwed up too much that one stupid night. Which is really frustrating.