Court date set, still holding on (csabo part 2)

[csabo]

Well, if you read the whole post, no not really. I don't want to go on a date with him because I want to comfort him for having a bad date, I just was remarking it might be a more pronounced good date with me because of the bad date. The reason I want to go out with him is because he's my husband and I love him. Sorry, it's not a magic button I can just turn off. If I could, I probably wouldn't be on this forum wanting to save my marriage. And I only said part of me wants to go with him.

What I actually suggested I actually do is see it without him and not even talk to him about it. I actually said that twice.

I appreciate what you're trying to say, but honestly I felt a bit... demonized for having conflicting thoughts and feelings about someone who 5 months ago was the love of my life and 4 months ago betrayed that love and trust. It's rough. It's a rollercoaster.