I've tried to do a 180 on this, and I felt a bit crushed by what happened today.
I normally don't talk to people about issues/feelings. I find it hard to trust people. But I've been trying to talk a little more since this whole thing happened.
I have two closest friends. One has been very cut and dried from the very beginning, telling me to 'get a divorce'.
I asked her advice on something (I know, I know...I really just wanted a friendly ear and to find my own way to my own answer). She was very much of the 'get a divorce and make it amicable to avoid years of animosity'.
I asked her if she would have said the same thing if my husband had died suddenly a year ago. And she said he hasn't, nobody has died.
I tried to explain how I felt that a he had, in a sense. And she just cut the conversation short.
I almost had a panic attack afterwards I was so upset.
I know this is bad, but she's only just got married and I wanted to say to her imagine how you'd feel if it happened to you, not just after getting married, but after many years of marriage. But I didn't say anything like that, obviously.
