Yes, Feyth. Cheese is probably not a great thing for your boot camp...probably not much on the meal plan. But those tunnels? A great workout if you scramble on all fours!
Hang in there, you have so much going for you. Just keep moving and take breathers when you need 'em. As a fellow co-dependent S, its a hard habit to break. I just keep saying...it gets better. And you know what? Each time I come out of the depression states (which keep getting shorter), it does! I'm starting to change my feelings of why me, poor me, and I must somehow have deserved this rejection and betrayal, to "Wow. Too bad H doesn't get to see the "me" I'm becoming. The woman only a fool would leave."
Lucky us with our introspection and awesome DB board friends who wield loving 2x4s. We get to grow and get better. Our S? Well...who knows. That's, I guess, their own journey.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
Ah yes, ciluzen... Our lovely gift of introspection. I know it's a wonderful thing that will make us better adjusted humans...but.... Well.... Ya know.... It came with a cost. A high cost of something we never wanted to buy! But like you said.... Making lemonade out of lemons! And I have no doubt that we will all be better off as a result.
So now.... An Update for the cheese diary
Cravings came on about 11:15... I was dying for a string cheese! (My usual snack) but I held strong and had a banana instead. Ho hum. I adhered to the diet today... Just couldn't choke down the required gallon of water.
Had bootcamp day 2 today. Yesterday was arms and back... Today was legs. I'm dead. Just got out of an Epsom salt bath and I have a feeling I won't be walking tomorrow! I love this gym.... Everyone is so supportive. This guy stopped right in the middle of his set to introduce himself... Who does that?!?! We have a team and we try to all attend at the same time. We have an accountability support page on facebook. I love it! I really love the fact that i can spend a full hour focusing on me and making new friends and not once does h pop into mind. It's inpossible because I'm working too hard. I LOVE that!
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
I love that feeing of focus. I get it when playing hockey, sometimes when working out. No matter is going on it leaves my head. Glad you are enjoying the boot camp. Sounds awesome!
Boot camp sounds fantastic and slightly scary all at the same time!
We'll done for not giving in to the cheese cravings although I am very disappointed that a coneseur of fine cheese such as yourself Feyth had a craving for string cheese... Whaaat!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
Not string cheese though, Coly but truth be told, my standards aren't that high!
I was at a happy hour mixer for one of the community leadership groups I'm part of. They had some tray passed hors de oeuvres and vegetable crudités and yep.... Cheese! i was starving and it was fantastic and I don't regret it at all!!! I did not, however, have any wine. Saving that for a "cheat treat" as I'm going out to dinner tomorrow.
It was kind of interesting being the only one at the mixer not drinking. Somehow the conversation came onto me and my love life (totally inappropriate for a professional function... But I think people want me to be "happy" on a personal level). I'm working on building more personal connections with others so I allowed the conversation to continue. It was quite humerous to be told by local policy leaders that I should join bumble so I can at least take dating into my own hands. Oh boy... I wasn't offended, and found it funny and awkward and uncomfortable all at the same time.
Since I had my mixer, I didn't make it to boot camp. So I had to do my own workout with cardio and post it on our facebook page as proof. Ouuuucchhhh....so much pain!!!!!! I literally don't have the strength to go from a sitting to standing position so I kind of have to roll onto hands and then get up. I'm having fun with it... I've never been one of those super fit/ athletic girls and it's weird to see a reflection of me in the mirror squatting and lifting weights. Who is she???!
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
Bootcamp is going well... Never been so sore in my entire life (not an exaggeration!)... Must mean it's working. Some people in my group have already lost between 5-7 lbs! I haven't lost any, but I didn't really have much to lose... Hoping to just firm up.
So... I already know the answer, but I'm going to throw the question out there anyway because I'm a slow learner .... Is there anything I can/should say to diffuse h a bit? Yup... He's still on the lets be nasty to Feyth freight train.
His sister was in town this weekend and I wasn't sure if I would see her during dog swap (nope).... Gotta let that expectation go! Was also hoping (expectation) that her being with him would put him in a better mood (mind reading). Nope!
Ahh well... Just got to keep on keepin on. Have a good one!
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
