JRuss - Is it possible for you to look at the next phase of your life with any excitement? You have been at this a long time. I am amazed at how long LBS can stay at it living in fear, holding on for any positive their WW can give them. Back in my day we had a huge discussion about when is enough, enough. For me I wasn't willing to give away years of my life in the hopes that my XW would come to her senses. Instead, I came to my senses. You have fought the good fight. While it may be sad that you feel like you haven't achieved your goal you have stayed true to your core values and fought for your family and endured some incredible emotional stress. If your WW isn't attracted to someone that would do all that for that long a period of time, than what are you really losing??
It's incredibly tough to go through a family break up. But it can be done. it is done everyday. And you can get back to a life that not only you, but your kids thrive in.
You've done everything you can. No regrets. No more fear. embrace the future. Whatever that looks like.
You can handle this.
Strength and Honor.
Mules
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.