I'm able to spew gungho DB stuff here, but find it hard to do half of the s[h]it in real life.
Living it day by day.
Hang in there FG. Do the best you can. One day at a time.
You will turn the corner. I promise.
This is a traumatic experience. Everyone recovers/heals at their own speed. I fully believe my sitch happened for a reason. I understand that better now 7 years down the road. Try to embrace what you can. I was like you. But I look back differently now and see something that was necessary in my life. It's hard to live it at the time, real easy to play armchair QB later on. I'm here to tell you that things will get better no matter how they turn out. You are grieving your old R. Nothing wrong with that, and very necessary to heal. Own it.
You can handle this.
Strength and Honor.
Mules
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.