I am sorry you are going through this, but here you are among people going through similar situations, who will support you. Post often, read, and do the welcome post homework. I also suffer from depression and discovered that exercise helped me a lot. Not only to look better (which helps on its own) but it worked better than antidepressants.
Good luck
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“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”
