Just checking in and journaling. I did the run, finished the race in a PB. S was helping out at the finish line and gave me a hug. Next day our photo appeared in the local paper. W saw it and congratulated us. Celebrated S's birthday with him but without W. He sees his mum for the odd quick meal together or car ride. She keeps changing her profile pic on social media to her smiling in various places but apart from that I know nothing. S is working hard at school and is good company at home. I'm busy at work. The hard side is after a year she's still very much in my thoughts and I fight the urge to get in touch. She was my best friend and I miss her in my life. Can't change things and it doesn't get easier.
