When I first came on this site back in summer of 2015, I really thought that one day I would be posting in the Piecing forums, not in the Surviving divorce forums. But truth be told, my life is really no different. Before, I was miserable in a marriage living with my parents. Now I'm miserable just living with my parents.
So now, Really my big goal will be to move away from my parents but first I have to survive the divorce.... Which is the process im going through. So I'm moving here with you guys, to be with some old friends, even though im legally not divorced yet.
Husband physically left in summer of 2015. April of 2016 I basically gave up hope for reconciliation and stopped all communication excluding kid logistics. There is no arguments with husband, just overly polite, canned, phony responses to each other. I basically started mirroring his way of communication. (which believe it or not is very traumatizing for me and difficult to explain why, but I do feel traumatized and angry by the stonewalling/disengagement/silence..but not really silence. But perhaps another post.). I am allowing the very expensive lawyer to negotiate for me. When husband is a bit friendly with me, I actually get nervous.. I figure it's because he wants something or perhaps has some legal advantage that is putting him in a good mood. (Still working on my negativity and anxiety)
Slowly entering into a relationship with someone new (completely debateable even for me if it's too early). And working on some great parenting strategies to help with my son. Work is great, and the plan will be to eventually increase work hours.
Anyway, I am so greatful for these forums and for the developing friendships I am forming with people going through the same things I am. I know how much insecurity is breeded into this comment, but I will say it anyway. It helps my sense of esteem knowing that there are absolutely fantastic, intelligent, thoughtful, amazing, and beautiful people out there who have been rejected by their spouses!
