6 Months since she said i dont love you (4)

[Natus]

*wonder what happen to my post ~ i guess will try again*

Is it weird, nowadays i cant imagine not being separated.

I still have feelings for her, no doubt about that but i've made a good solid wall around me (or at least i believe so, hasnt been tested yet).

Going to bring S5 to england & scotland for almost the whole December. It will be his first time seeing snow. Im looking forward to this trip as an escape from everything but at the same time there is a finality in it. A long near month long trip away from her. We will no longer be going on family trips, my heart breaks at the idea but excited at the same time.

A girl told me i was trying to hard to be alone, that i have so much love to give but i wont let anyone in. I wonder if that will be my default mode, to be guarded. To be fair its still early days for me. Some people have been on this site for years.