Don't know where I belong.....

[twinmom]

It's late but I wanted to thank you for your advice.
I do have passwords / code to phone & email. He doesn't really use email. Phone code is pretty much worthless because he can just delete texts as soon as he gets them.

He is a WONDERFUL father. He cares for the little one as well as or better than I do. He gets up every night for her 12am & 4am cornstarch. He is the one who takes her to all Dr appts. He gives the kids baths at least as many days as I do. He does all the laundry, sweeps the floors, cleans bathrooms, loads dishwasher, cuts the grass, grocery shops.... besides this whole stupid f'ed up addiction thing he is pretty amazing.
The most painful part for me is knowing he didn't fall in love with me, I was just another "fix" for him.