Quote: Call me stupid, but I really do love him. Very much. I feel torn apart. A part of me wants to stay, and be with him. Try to make it work, because I love him. Another part wants to leave because I know he isn't going to change.
Alorna - You aren't stupid. But you also aren't being honest with yourself. You are staying because you think you can't do any better than him. You are staying because you feel, somehow, you have caused his behavior. You are staying because you think you deserve to be treated poorly. Love shouldn't hurt.
And what about your child? Does your child deserve this? Has your child caused this? Is this what's best for your child? If you don't have the strength to leave - and I understand not having that strength, because I've been there - then leave him for your child's sake.
There are lots of support groups for women in situations like yours. Maybe you can find one in your community? Even if you don't have the strength to leave now, you need to do something for yourself before this man robs you of the last bit of self-respect you have left.
