WW, My Addiction, My D, my new life...

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Wanted to update people on my status, and say hello formally to everyone. I'm posing when I can.

Halloween marks a year since bomb drop, and me going cold turkey on my porn addiction. Boo on one count, yay on another!

My ex-wife's boyfriend, who is going through a divorce, has continued to stall his divorce, per his estranged wife, who I've texted a few times. He has quit his teaching job in Chicago, and moved to Madison to be with EX-WW, working another teaching job. He sees his adopted step-kids every other week or so. I live 2 blocks form EX-WW, and has told the kids to not drop by her place (our old place) when they are with me. She has NOT informed them of her boyfriend, which is a bit weird to me. OM actually teaches in the same building where my son goes to school, so just finding this out was a bit of a trigger for me on the anniversary.

EX-WW is fully in limerence, new clothes, new car, dyed her hair, grew it long, started mild cosmetic surgery, and even got called out by our pastor after posting pictures on FB of her and OM. She terminated her membership at our church, which is HUGE. I'm the lone person to carry the church banner for now.

I'm running 3 miles about 5 times a week now. New shoes and orthotics have helped tremendously. Signed up for a 5k race Thanksgiving morning, when I won't have the kids. Losing some weight, and my clothes fit better.

Going to IC once a month, and working on forgiveness. It's not a one-time thing, like it was in grade school! I have to choose to forgive every day. It's more than a feeling, and more than a thought - it's a conscience choice daily.

No girlfriend, no dates. I'm still in the process of working on myself. I'm lonely some days, but it's not debilitating. Calling my addiction sponsor once a week, talking to my bother and friends every other day. I'm more at peace with not having my EX-WW in my life, but miss being married.

I realize she treated me badly for years - Sandi is spot on, no respect! I did get an 'I'm sorry for the way I've been acting' after numberous heated texts, but I haven't responded.

I worry about the effects on the kids, the development of the OM in town and possible future relationship with my kids, but I can't control it. I just get to choose how I react and respond.

Advice? Comments? Let me know. I'd love to hear from people.