I used to catch my H with downloaded porn rather often; I understand how it can make you feel. You need to remove yourself and your child as far as possible from this man before he harms you any more, and before he harms your child. He is NOT a good role model, and I know you want the best for your child. Porn is one thing, addiction is another. You may not be totally aware of it, but I'm willing to bet he's damaging your self-image. You really need to be strong, for yourself and for your child. There are plenty of places to find help; please believe in yourself and what you can accomplish!!
I am NOT suggesting you try this, it's just what I did when I got fed up with it: One night after my H went to bed, I got on his computer and photo-shopped one of his porn pics. I drew a word bubble and wrote in something like, 'Instead of looking at me why don't you go spend some time with your flesh and blood W? Don't you realize how much she misses you and wants to be with you?' The next morning I found a photo-shopped pic on my computer, with his feelings in response. It ended up being a great way for us to communicate our feelings. It allowed us time to 'think before we speak'.
><> Hope you're finding the strength you need to make it thru this...
