Alorna, sweetie, I want you to know something: this is not about the porn. It doesn't matter if this man looks at porn 24 hours a day or if he is the kindest, most gentle lover on the planet. The fact is he is controlling and abusive. I don't know you, but I could give a sh*t less about the porn at this point. You need to get out of there. Stop blaming the porn. Stop blaming yourself. Just wait until he is gone, take your kid, and leave.
You've gotten some good advice on this board - are you listening to it at all?
- Heavyheart (who has been where you're at, and mustered up the courage to leave, and knows you can do it too)