I understand you dude, I truly do. You are very early in all this $hit and things will likely get worse before they get better. You are currently in the "poor me" mode. You need to get out and make your life worth living. Ask yourself what you always wanted to achieve and just could not find the time. Well now the time has been granted, time to start "living". That trip you always wanted to take, now you can. Get out of your comfort zone. Why would you not treat yourself to a nice dinner in that posh new restaurant? Why would you not try curling for the first time? You always wanted to see the giant redwoods in Cali in person? Get your a$$ in the car and go.
I think you sort of see what I am getting at.
Stay strong buddy, these really are life changing events... But in time you will find out, the change can also be for the better, sooooo much better.
